DEDICATED TO HER - PART III

(series continued...)
(http://aukatmeinraho.blogspot.com/2008/03/dedicated-to-her.html)
(http://aukatmeinraho.blogspot.com/2008/04/dedicated-to-her-part-ii.html)
Yet another transition...I have started missing her
Just want to see her...talk to her...
But what...?
I have nothing to say...just want to stay close to her

I have started demanding from her
Who has given me the right?
may be a self proclaimed one

She was not a part of me two years in past
and may be...who knows...
She won't be in my life two years from now...
a day I worry most but am sure of...
But who cares and How does it matter...Today I need her...a reason I search for

When I am with her..the time just stops
and I love those static moments which I just enjoy but cannot describe
Morning when I stood in front of the mirror...I could see her reflection in it...
I am not sure...was that an illusion?
She is around me everywhere
I am trying hard to forget her...but the more I try...more the image becomes prominent

Should I say "I love her"...
Do these words carry the meaning and the feelings I have for her...
certainly No...and I just can't do that...Why?
Whenever I love someone...the destiny takes it away from me...
I am afraid of losing her...I will never say...
I hate her...I want her...I need her...Please...don't play with me this time...

Can someone be loved so much...?
As for me, to love her alone, to make her happy,
to do nothing which would contradict her wishes, this is my destiny and the meaning of my life

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Aap se Tum, Tum se Tu ho gaye
ju kurbat badhti gayee, woh betakalluf se hogaye
tha nakab palkon ka, aur haya ka chilman
benasheen aahista aahista beparda ho gaye
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